-a moment like this-

Friday, December 31, 2004

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yup yup! im back! where's my red carpet -pouts-
long awaited day has arrived! ha. miss me? i sure miss u guys! =)
it was ony 4 days but it seems like 4ever!! imagine if i was away on a long trip or if i really study overseas! gosh. dont wana tink abt it!
hong kong was great but if i stay for another day, i wil b sooo bored.
well known brands there are more ex than in spore. although it was SALE evrywhere!
was shoppin n exploring around myself most of the time. surprisingly, i wasnt scared although i got stalk by guys n some tried 2 communicate with me. mayb they're jus frendly. being stalk was scary! thankfully my hp had auto rome n i could talk on it!
imagine if my pone din hv connection, i would b soo shut away frm u guys! i was missin my dear peeps! =)
weather was cold & i didn bring any jeans along with me! my heel of my boots oso gave way one day and luckily i brought slippers along with me! people were like starin at my pathetic toes! ha.
okay!enough about hong kong cause wad matters is IM BACK!!! =) happiness! =)

im sure evry1 heard about the killer waves tat killed thousands of people! wad a tragic ting to happen on boxing day! sigh! we really have to thank god tat we are alive! we sldnt b complainin on small little stuffs anymore. mayb like.. omg. im fat im fat! ha. but.... omg.. because of the holiday and i hav been wearin heels the whole time, my calves are huge now! they r gross! so from now.. i wil avoid heels! and we really hav to treasure people around us. so every1, pls cherish me more! hee!

anyway its new yr eve and its raining! the stupid rain ruins all mood! argh! supposed to go to sentosa but who wana pay money and get touched and injured for! n wad's worst is i hear tat half of the population are indian workers! eee. being touched by them? eee! hell no! dont know wad are the plans for later but wil be celebratin with pat and steph. no plans? hu cares.. cause they are my celebration! =) aww. dress up time! hee

::at this moment:: @ Friday, December 31, 2004

Friday, December 24, 2004

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guess who's back? (who who who) yea its me! its me! it's DAPHNE WEE! =) my com had some problem and therefore i cldn blog! anyway all this while, evrythin has been so fly! shopping and shoppin and spendin time with all my darlings. dont have to ask for more! =) i can do with extra cash please! hee. im broke! broke frm buyin xmas gifts and all the sales tat are happenin! soo much sales..so little time! and with sch jus startin ard the corner.. guess my clothes are jus gona collect dust as usual! bleh! im goin 2 hong kong 2 get more shopping done too! people..please miss me! hee! well, retail therapy is the answer 2 all my problems & stress! not like im feelin screwed now but im rewardin myself....because! guess wad!! i passed my freakin n's! u cld jus feel the tension at the sch hall wen one by one our names were being called! its amazing tat we all got through! all gona b a nerd nex yr eh?! set!! been eatin alot of sinful stuffs recently. promise i cant eat extrim but im gettin fatter and fatter! help!!! and my calves and my arms and my cheek are growin in size! my bro, mum & clara told me tat im gettin fatter! argh! dont wana live anymore! why are weight such a huge issue 2 us?! depressin to see my $99 mango jacket on sale at half price! wil kill any1 hu wears it on the street! argh!!! o well, bought another jacket! it was love at 1st sight. thankfully i waited for the sale! $119?no way man! dont hav 2 add on abt wad i bought. well, i know my dressin totally change! its not like me anymore eh? wad happened 2 princess girly daphne? punk rock princess now? im not a wannabe/poser please! dont worry, wont gif up heels jus tat i wil b more hyper wearin shoes cause i can jump & hack abt bein demure dressed like tat =X ha!

2day's the eve of christmas! are u guys feelin it? can u feel the spirit and excitment? can u smell the honey baked ham? can u hear santa's on the way? town has been soo crowded and happenin due to xmas. all the lights are shining so brightly evrwhere u go. and the sound of children's laughter fills the air. evry1 is singin & performin.. and love is in the air! whoo~! such a great celebration yea!?

Miss Independent
Miss Self-sufficient
Miss Keep-your-distance
Miss Out-of-my-way
Miss, Don't-let-a-man-interfere, Nooooo……
Miss On-her-own
Miss Almost-grown
Miss Never,-let-a-man,-help-her-off-her-throne
Miss Apprehensive...she fell in LovE!
What is the feelin' takin' over? Thinkin' no one could open the door! Surprise...It's timeTo feel….what's Real What happened to Miss Independent?
So, by changing a misconception She went in a new direction And found inside she felt a connection She fellllll in Love! =)

long post eh? alright! MERRY XMAS MY PRECIOUS DARLINGS! CANT WAIT 2 MEET U GUYS SOON! LOVE U! =)

::at this moment:: @ Friday, December 24, 2004

Monday, December 13, 2004

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God must hate me
He cursed me for eternity
God must hate me
Maybe you should pray for me
I guess its no use
Im screwing up every little thing i ever tried to do
I was born to lose
I'm breaking down and you can't save me
I'm stuck in hell
And I wanna go home!!!....ok..wait! im at home!
And tats where hell all begin!
‘to be on the verge of breakin down and deep inside im bleedin!’
And why cant my mum save me? Or fight for me?
Its been ages ..far too long since I feel this way! To feel tat the world is kinda against me! Where the people I need soo badly are jus soo far away ! Nobody cares cuz I'm alone and the world is having more fun than me. Thx fann and mark though =)
Sorry abt being negative towards god. Im feeling guilty! Haven been to church for donkey yrs! Maybe tats y he’s punishing me! I will make it a point to go church weekly! I wil! I must! And I can! But tats wad i've been sayin. sigh anyway I wana go out! ALONE! I need 2 find myself! I need 2 look for the strength and power and support tat im lacking! I am a loser! Bleh! (I don’t sound like the gal tat u guys know eh?) any1 wana join anti-denise club? MEMEME! im feeling so tired frm all this cryin! i tink i wil go 2 wonderland!

::at this moment:: @ Monday, December 13, 2004

Sunday, December 12, 2004

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My com is screwed! im sure evry1 noes it already! cant blog! smthing's wrong. dont want tis blog 2 go all rusty so my dear nicole shall post on my behalf. HAPPY BDAE SWEETIE! =) anyway lots of tings has happened since the last tym i blog. well, let's tok abt now instead yea? things are really complicated and confusing for me! im going through smthing which i can say its the tougest decision in my life. thanks to all of my frens hu tried to be there for me and giving me a direct answer. but it aint helpin actually =X never in my life will I expect myself to be hurting some1. I don’t wana hurt any1. in fact, I wil be hurting myself as well! It wil hurt to see u feelin hurt too! I love u whoever u are alright! It might sound ironic but yea.

I wish I know wad my heart really want! I wish I cld not be indecisive and stick to wad I wan. Its tough!so many questions..i need an answer! I am insecure! Sigh. I need 2 time 4 soul searching! I need all the time in the world! i suck! =( walk around east coast alone hoping I could ting over everything but was stone-ing instead. Thank god I wasn’t rape!*phew* Hee.

Sings ‘im jus a kid and life is a nitemare…’ ,guess to a certain extend. Fairytale life? It isn’t as simple as it is. It wldnt b perfect! Life isn’t like tat! But I belive some1 out there can make it happen! Not possible? Come on. At least close 2 it? Hee.. *I don’t wana fall in love. Love is indeed a wonderful and magical feeling but hurting some1 isnt! Any1 belif in true love at such a young age? Sings ‘I belif in a ting call love..’ My frens mite say tat it is impossible and we sld go for flings at this age but nah.. not for me! Well, my parents dated since my mum was 16. my aunty dated since they were 15. (dere r stil others I noe)and till now..their love for each other remains the same. In fact, im sure it grew stronger over the years! =) how I envy them when I heard of their love life! *snap*

::at this moment:: @ Sunday, December 12, 2004