-a moment like this-

Sunday, January 30, 2005

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im cursed! im jinx! i dont wanna liveeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
i burnt myself with the iron hair curling thong!
imagine how hot the iron was and i lean against it for only a few seconds.
and now my thigh is disfigured! it will leave a scar for life?
pus kept oozing out and u are able to see the flesh of my skin. eeew
i wan it to heal straight away!
how am i gona wear skirts in the future. i rather die-skirts are my life!
besides chinese new yr is coming! dont wana go out. dont wan the world to see me
im paranoid over evrythin now. especially since i fell again while walkin up the stairs as i didnt wear my contacts. im jinx.. i told ya! sigh
so now i have 3 ugly scars on my left leg. i rather have it cut off
i cant wear jeans too since jeans are tight fitting and my burnt is hurtin so much evn when im not touching it.
depressed. this is taking over my life. im serious! sigh
precious got burnt too while frying an egg for me recently and now its my turn.
karma? but what did i do right? i dont deserve to be burnt! -pouts-

-please feel the pain for/with me-

had fun over the wkend although we were all dead broke. i forgot to bring out my wallet with me and i wanted to do some shopping! fann only had 20 cents left with her.argh.
evrywhere was packed with people. all the kiasu aunties were pushing their way at the metro sale.

fann and I bought a mp3.( she signed her mum's master card. ) ha.
its pink and real slim. yay! like finally although i wanted da ipod mini badly. no money for it.
stupid sahirah got it for free! and its pink! hate chew(you) hurhur
slim tat it looks like a digi camera to some people? hah! tat was real funny man! *wink*

had fun slacking at cini. more n more people filled the table.
-laugh like a mad cow with all the lamers around me. ha
-this guy paul was sayin i look like his classmate. he tot i was his sista. i have to meet that guy! he beta not be fugly. he's mix like rojak. haha.
-andrew was makin fun of me sayin i curl my leg hair. wadeverrrrrrrrr..
-was real shock for words when john told me his sister's name was cheryl lum. its real freaky. there is a long story behind it. gosh.
-dp was using farah's good shit blusher aka oso fann's magic wand *wink* hurhur
-saw mark after donkey years!(MIA=missin in action) hurhur. he got a tann. no more fair mark mark! ha

shall end here

::at this moment:: @ Sunday, January 30, 2005

Friday, January 28, 2005

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went cycling at east coast park just now and all of a sudden it started pouring! and we had no choice but to be drench under the rain and cycle back to return our bicycle. the feeling we had all over us was simply gross! period
east coast park is a memory lane for me. lots of memories we shared togther. =)
we really have to go back there soon then at the same time we can go and visit dear pat pat, like we used to! ha

fann and farah wil be coming to stay over later. yay! it feels like the holidays! haven bum with them for such a longgggggg time and finally fann's havin her off days! fann feels like gettin drunk tonight and wash away all her sorrows! i wana eat choc and pig myself out! i hope fann will be all fly tonight. feel stress and annoyed evrytime i hear she isnt feelin alright.
*** a bitch! we all know that!

Why You Look So Sad?
Tears are in your eyes
Come on and come to me now
Dont be ashamed to cry to me
Let me see you through cause I have seen the dark side too
When the night falls on you
and you dont know what to do
jus remember that I will stand by you;
Wont let nobody hurt you
I will stand by you!

Dont hold it all inside
Come on and talk to me now
When you are standing at the crossroads
And dont know which path to choose
Let me come along.
cause even if you are wrong
I will stand by you

::at this moment:: @ Friday, January 28, 2005

Thursday, January 27, 2005

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the last time i went out with pat and steph : 27 days!!! goshhhh.. its been sooooo long! and the thing is pat's always workin over the weekend. argh. and now that steph found a job. we really got to make plans asap! missing our girls night out badly!

-ended school at 5 today cause of art! art is sooo time consuming. draggin evry art lesson and my progress is real slow at the moment. am dead.
-learning journey tomorrow. its an outing. i dont evn know if it will be fun. will be goin to central business distric to know more abt spore's history?!
-and on friday, this cheena band B.A.D. will be havin a mini concert in sch. and we CL B girls are supposed 2 stay back and be their 'fans'
the last mini cheena concert we had was real entertaining. laugh sooooooo hard. we went mad screamin like wild girls when we dont evn know who the friggin singer was! ha.
will have oac (cca) on that day. heard its cycling at east coast. i wouldnt mind then. cause its quite slack. but that means i wouldn b able to head down to town! argh!

went to park way after art today with my boy. loved the company. =) parkway is such a bore. how can any1 hang around that area soooo often?! hurhurhur. he brought me to see puffer fish for the 1st time of my life. deprieve eh? unfortunately, the damm fish wasnt puff up. i wan it to bloat up and hopefully it makes me laugh and go 'soooooooooo cutteee!!!' hee.
who loves orange soda?
kel loves orange soda!
isit true????
'i dooo i doooo'
ooou ooou ooooou!

who doesnt like kel? its such a tragic that he had passed away. he's such a talent! crackin me up all the time by the little action he does. there was this guy on american idol who was tryin 2 act like him the whole time. oh pls.. try hard! american idol auditions are the best part of the show. pure entertainment! i like! hee

::at this moment:: @ Thursday, January 27, 2005

Saturday, January 22, 2005

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Love: A deep, tender, ineffable feeling of affection and solicitude toward a person, such as that arising from kinship, recognition of attractive qualities, or a sense of underlying oneness. // A feeling of intense desire and attraction toward a person with whom one is disposed to make a pair; the emotion of sex and romance. to have an intense emotional attachment to.

That's the first two definitions of love straight from dictionary.com. Agree or disagree?

I agree sort of. I think "loving" someone is different from being "in love" with someone. For example, I love my wonderful friends as i enjoy their company. That goes along with the first definition. But I think you are only "in love" with one person at a time. It's this big deep thing. That goes along with the second definition.

well, love is subjective. to eveyone love is something different. It could be the best feeling u have in the world but it could also be smthin u wish u never feel. cause at times nothing hurts like love. that's the part that sux! Love has to be the greatest, yet most painful word in the universe.When you find love it's an amazing gift that at the same time its thrilling yet confusing.

Love. We think about it, sing about it; dream about it, loose sleep worrying about it. When we don't have it, we search for it. When we discover it, we don't know what to do with it. When we have it, we fear losing it. It's our constant source of pleasure and pain, but we can't predict which it will be from one moment to the next. It's a short word,easy to spell, difficult to define, and impossible to live without.

you don't get to choose, you just fall .... And you get this person who is all wrong and all right at the same time. And you know that you love them so much except sometimes they just drive you completely insane and no one can explain it and the reason its so confusing is because its love. but if love didn't have any challenges, what would be the point?

Immature Love says: i Love you because i Need you
Mature Love says: i Need you because I Love you

its funny how we set qualifications for the rite person 2 luv..while at da back of our minds...we know that tha person we truly luv will always be an exception!

my conclusion of Love is,
going to bed at night knowing that there is one person out there who?s thinking of you at the same moment, love is to have the last call of the day, the one last person you want to talk to while lying in bed just before the day is over, love is a smile, its the only thing you want to do when you're in love, but if there's not a smile on your face, you can feel it in your heart, love is forgiving, you may fight and go through rough times, but love, gives you the power to forgive and work things out, love is understanding and accepting, love involved confusion and excitement, love is the one thing that keeps me goin because of YOU! =)

thanks for being a part of my life. let's make our dreams come true. with you beside me, im sure anything is possible!
you are the arms that i can depend to hold me at my weakest.
you are the Eyes that will see and bear with me at my( u g l i e s t )
And would you be the *heart* that will love me at my worst?

::at this moment:: @ Saturday, January 22, 2005

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Ahhhh.. i still cant get over Paris Hilton!!! : the girl who we all love, and love to hate. She’s rich, famous, gorgeous and has not just one gigantic closet brimming with the cutest clothes! life's unfair! argh! There is always something to say abt Paris' style. U gotta give it up to her- she is creative, original and she never wears the same thing twice. (her hairstyle too! since she has a different hairstylist in evry country) n her autobiography, Hilton gives us a rundown of how to be an heiress: Step 1: Be born into the right family. Choose your chromosomes wisely. This may seem like ludicrous advice, but it actually isn’t. If an heiress is in control of everything, why shouldn’t she be in control of who she’s born to?

okok. enough about her! went to town for awhile today and then to great world to visit dear fann at zara. had kenny rogers! it was gooooood! hah! evrywhere in town is havin a sale! sale sale sale! soooo many sales..so little time! not forgettin how little money i have left! argh! hate it! in the future, i need a job that pays alot.how am i gona have enough for shoppin?!

shall end my entry.
why is time always running soooooo fast when im with you? wil some1 please stop the time for us? hey! u are a runner right? catch n pause it would u? haha. ok fine! tat was lame!

::at this moment:: @ Saturday, January 22, 2005

Wednesday, January 19, 2005

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i loveeeeee this template. i really do! paris hilton looks gorgeous here! stunning and glamourous! love her curls! i want my hair to be like hers! my black hair colour is start to fade frm the roots. yay! but my ends are stil jet black. argh.

paris hilton. hate her or love her? i simply jus love her! i used to hate her from the start but not now! she's like a life size barbie to me! i dont care abt the video. it wasnt her fault. tat bastard busted her! she didn want that to happen! i dont mind watching that tape though. haha. not like i watch porn but with paris starring in it, i wldnt mind somehow! hah! and i simply love Audrey hepburn! she's the epitome of classic sophistication. i wanted the 'guess' bag with paris face on it. i love it. but my frens were sayin enough of her evrywhere (all the guess posters. its annoyin) and now..i wana carry her face around! true. y do we wana promote her evn more actually? and she's rich enough- dont have to model for guess! but then again, who wouldn want to b a guess model? im still lookin for a black and white bag of audrey hepburn. saw a couple in hong kong but they wasnt nice. looks cheapo! argh.

anyway enough said. loving this template!!!

::at this moment:: @ Wednesday, January 19, 2005

Monday, January 17, 2005

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my dear boy complains tat i dont blog about him. imagine him pouting!
this post is for u alright! now appreciate it! i jus find it soo hard 4 me 2 be cheesy towards u. *blush* i am a cheesy person. too cheesy tat pat pat always comment abt it. but then for u, its jus hard.

here goes. man this is hard...

Look in my eyes n tell me what you see
cuz when I'm staring into yours
I see my whole world ahead of me.

while I look at you, i realize just how much you've been a part of my life
how special you are and how much you've made me happy.
if only i could make u feel the exact way u make me feel evryday.
mayb then u would see wad i see.

alright. i think i said too much. bloggin has neva been tis hard!
(no one else can speak the words on your lip)
and u better show me some love by taggin smthing! =p

::at this moment:: @ Monday, January 17, 2005

Sunday, January 16, 2005

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today was real fly! =) nothin reali special actually, dont know y but i feel tat i had such a great time! lookin 4ward to the next wkend! cant wait to be hyper again! hah! watched phantom of operah! well, it was really romantic but slow. i could feel the love between the both of them when they sang 2gther! like wow! love the soundtrack! the worst ting was the cinema seats were real uncomfortable! gona have a stiff neck i swear! n it was itchy. thx 2 my sensitive skin too! argh. am tired. shall end here.

o ya. farah was tellin me tat in jurong there's a store named 'roti mum' like wtf! how poser can tat be?! any1 wana set up a store with me name 'roti kids?' wahaha LAME!

::at this moment:: @ Sunday, January 16, 2005

Friday, January 14, 2005

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i sneaked out tat day and i finally got caught! bummer! mum was real mad at me but dad wasnt. i guess i disappoint my dad real bad. for the 1st time, he din leture me or anything but instead tel me how much he loves me and how worried he was. he evn pretended to scold me infront of my mum. yes! da word is pretended! weird! i tot i wld b grounded and my trust wil be all gone but this time.. my parents treat it s though nothing happened although now my mum wil keep a look out! sigh.

enough about tat. i have yet 2 watch phantom of opera. i am soooo back dated! evry1 is talkin about it.. evry1 is in love with it. i must watch it tmr! and i will! short for of tomorrow is tmr isnt it? y do ppl spell it as tml? isnt tat tomorrlo? its wrong! it sounds gross too!

we are always craving for 'roti boy' in class. one starts 2 crave for it. and then it wil be an influence to evry1 else. nothing vry fantastic about it though. do u know bread papa frm taka is made frm orchid? orchid produces vanilla. interesting. dont fancy vanilla though.

yesterday things went way too rocky. it was heartwrenching! like totally! *shake it off and pretend tat evrything is okay* well, im real glad evrything is FLY right now! =) and i mean real fly! ha. thx 2 all my beloved frens who were there for me. u guys mean sooo much to me! =)

quote? here goes.. 'when there is love..there is life' awww

::at this moment:: @ Friday, January 14, 2005

Sunday, January 09, 2005

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fann came over for awhile tat day. like finally! =)
she lost weight. i wana work too. not fair.. debra came over at nite with her parents. she lost weight too. cause of stress. i wana b stress! mayb i sld start studyin! all cause i wana lose weight!

watched 'my girl' and 'meet the fuckers' over the wkend. hurhur. the child tat starred in both movies are soooooo adorable. simply hard to resist! 1..2..3.. lets all say tis 2gther.. 'assshhh holeeee' =p *licka licka* o ya, our school book shop uncle's grandson is really cute. evry1 in school get oh so excited when we see tat 3 yr old kid around. he have beautiful rosy cheeks, deep dimples, long lattitude lashes, brown hair, nice lips etc.. he's a mix blood of chinese spanish philipino. u can jus imagine how hot he will be when he grows up!
kids kids kids... with all these adorable kids around..it jus makes u be impatient to have your own child isnt it?

if ony we din grow up tat fast.. if ony we were stil as innocent as a child. we wil have our own kind of freedom. using tears to get wad we want (doesn work all the time though. ha) and feelin on cloud 9 most of the time. we wil have soo much affection frm evry1 around..
watchin the movie my girl shows how the olden kids have their own fun when they live in a kampong lifestyle. (thai movie u see) . we missed out this kinda fun tat our parents have cuase our generation had barbie dolls made already instead of the cheapo paper dolls!

let's all re-create our own make belive childhood!

::at this moment:: @ Sunday, January 09, 2005

Wednesday, January 05, 2005

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sch has started. oh bother. its boring. wads new?
hair is jetblack. one word 'GROSS' not gona take pic til the colour fades away! ha. im like soo gonna miss my best fren-the camera! ha
not used to wakin up early & forcin myself 2 b awake the whole time in sch.
missin my holidays real bad! i cnt wait to go town soon. i wana dress up & let my hair down n go crazy but then again, my hair makes me look so blunt n slpy! -groans-
when school starts, life is such a drag. such a routine! but with you around, at least there is smthin to look 4ward to. =)
love the time spent with you.

o ya! thanks to my dear pat and steph for surprising me with the pants i love for some time! its evn more gorgeous as its frm the both of u =) awww

its been some time since i last chat with fann online or on the pone. her work has taken up most of her time! i'll pray tat u'll have good health n able 2 survive the most tiring day at work. dont wan u to faint in work again. alot to catch up on huh? am missin u! WOGAY WOGAY

::at this moment:: @ Wednesday, January 05, 2005

Saturday, January 01, 2005

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my template says evrything! loving the castles in the sky! ha. =)

its amazing that whenever u smile, i melt and twingle inside. awwww.
pls dont look at me with those eyes! u jus make me weak in my knees even more! =X
serious! i guess its jus the way i feel about you. not tat u have a millon dollar smile or a set of electrifying eyes! =p

::at this moment:: @ Saturday, January 01, 2005

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its new year day! yes! its a brand new year once again! soon it wil be 2006 and then i wil b old and fugly! hurhurhur! its's kinda sad tat time passes by like a strike of lightning. did i even do anythin meaningful the whole year? anyway how was your celebration last night? here we are celebrating.. and people around are sufferinf from discomfort from wad hav happened to the world! sigh

anyway the 3 of us left to clark quay as there was some festival going around. it was boring! ate there and took some pictures. anyone saw 'hooters' uniform? gosh. gross! to think stephanie wanted to work there! haa. eeeeeeew!

left to town as we tot of goin to 'rouge' since kenneth could bring us in for free! (we were all on a very tight budget!poor us!)kenneth's girl/friend was really funky! pretty too! love her shoes! i wan!!! well, town was packed with lots of young wannabe. it was polluted with them and blanglas! wad a nice sight-NOT! its as though these small kids hav neva step into town b4. action ah beng and ah lian! hello! isnt tat SOOOOO YESTERDAY?? hah!

saw mr juraimy! shit. haven even start on my 300 marks art project and tat wil depend on my art testi i need at the end of the year. he was like staring at what i wore and thinkin where am i goin. shit. i hope i din giv a bad impression. well, its been ages since i dress like tat. and i cant even remember when was the last time i wore jeans til yesterday! ha. jeans are soo tight grippin and uncomfortable. plus it makes yr tummy bulge evrytym u sit. wad a sight! eeee

so..we couldn enter rouge and police were evrywhere. y must they even raid on tis day! jus a day of celebration for us?! argh! decided to go down to chijmes as wicked aura would b there as there was a salsa party goin on. salsa is sexy! we were there with andrew and his fren hu is also pat's childhood fren! how cute! well, alton (pronounced as elton) is a pretty boy! ha. andrew.. cute as usual la. some1 was wearin the same shirt as him! ha. n he gave me tis bottle of snow to shoot at any banglas tat come near me in town! wad a weapon i got! ha. precious was there too. he look sooooo hot! err.i tink i jus boost some1 ego! so i sld not say anythin else! ha. ken's frens were there too and one tried to pick pat up. so not pat's class right! =X and the whole time i was wonderin if he was a gal or a guy! ha. played retarded game wich actually was quite fun! ironic huh? haha.

so afterall, it wasnt a boring celebration. we did hav some fun right? and the alcohol tat we 'stole' ha! now tat school is starting..i wonder when wil be the nex time i hav fun like last nite! argh!

::at this moment:: @ Saturday, January 01, 2005